握

手往上一抓  是床头的铁支

这才觉得可以入睡

不久前才把这个习性改掉  最近是老毛病重发了

刻意的提醒自己不去做一些事情  很常力不从心

小时候也有类似的经验的

还小时都和婆婆睡在一起   总喜欢把自己的小手掌放在婆婆的手掌心里

能够握着某些东西    才能够满足

或许是我潜意识里隐藏的讯息

Lesson

高中毕业时迷茫着应该修读的科系 应该报读的大学

大学毕业了

那种迷茫的感觉又不知不觉地浮现了

有人告诉我说

迷茫是为了寻找方向

可迷茫的状况可以是

【我知道我想去那里 可是不确定这条路是不是回到那里】

【我不知道我想去那里  更不知道这条路会去哪里】

【我懂要去哪里要往哪里走  可是我还不确定我想去的地方】

或许人的方向感都很好   却还是犹豫不定的不知要往哪里走

这才会说  迷路   迷茫    迷失

人更害怕选择  在不确定的时候抉择

总觉得还没想清楚就往前走  很可能会吃不完兜着走

可殊不知就算我们不往前走   时间也会往前走  

似乎我们都没有办法停留太久

可没有经过思考就莽撞地走  迟早会摔跤

歇息没关系  可不要停顿的太久

想不通 慢走就是了

或许经过了一片草原  会被那里的辽阔有所启发

新的环境激起新的想法  新的构思

想不通的可能这个时刻就想通了

Jennifer Aniston:

[There are no regrets in life, just lessons.]

当下

很多时候为了计划未来

就会忘了享受当下正在进行的事物

虚度了那一刻的moment以后又会很想从来一次

踏空的走过时光隧道  

慢慢的就会忘了自己曾经走过的路

为了牢记自己挥洒的岁月

牢记每一个片刻   唯有踏实的走过

不要想太多   

就像师父说的 【做就对了】

【该哭该笑的时刻    就要大哭大笑   

 因为那是珍贵的真实人生   不是什么廉价的    为了取悦观众才存在的表演】--蔡康永

Monolog

         Celebration is actually a kind of appreciation that shows by the top management to the members that work hard for it. As for that, I really hope that I could have the budget to have a simple appreciation dinner with all the members.

         I get so excited when my treasurer told me that we have budget to have it! Seriously, I feel glad. The appreciation dinner not only means celebration, it just like farewell to everyone. There are others that willing to pay money to have a trip to have the last memories with their group members and I just wish to have a simple dinner with my group members..... yet this seems to be so difficult.

         Members prefer to refund the money rather to have the dinner. To them money is everything they need. Deal! Ya, perhaps it is really important to everyone. I felt sorry and apologize for the late refund. In fact, I should said we lack of the cohesiveness among the group. Hate to said that but it is true.

        Indeed, that's why I still insist to have the appreciation dinner as this may be the last chance to gather everyone together, to break the ice,to solve the conflict, to apologize, to forgive,to hug, to smile, to cry.. Nothing else, just to be TOGETHER.

        Not to blame, I know I did a bad job. Being a leader , once need to be good in giving instruction and organising.. and the important one .. being the spiritual person in the organisation. I am not good at all. Perhaps, I don't own the charisma to be the leader.

       Once heard that leader can be trained. In the other hand, I do believe some of the elements of a leader is so much connected with personality.

      Nonetheless, throughout this.. I learn, I feel, I gain and I loss..   After all, I should just make a step forward with the experience I gain.

选拔

选拔  是在人海中找出亮眼的人才

进而磨练成为公司的产品

可机会总留给准备好的人

我准备好了吗？

是为了凑热闹而参与选拔

还是对自己过分自信参与选拔

亦是 觉得乘还年轻是尝试所有的可能性

或是 太着急 随手能够抓到的浮板都不要放过

或许以上的答案皆是我内心的独白

太焦急  视线已逐渐模糊

先把脚步站稳

看清了

我要一触即发！