I get so excited when my treasurer told me that we have budget to have it! Seriously, I feel glad. The appreciation dinner not only means celebration, it just like farewell to everyone. There are others that willing to pay money to have a trip to have the last memories with their group members and I just wish to have a simple dinner with my group members..... yet this seems to be so difficult.
Members prefer to refund the money rather to have the dinner. To them money is everything they need. Deal! Ya, perhaps it is really important to everyone. I felt sorry and apologize for the late refund. In fact, I should said we lack of the cohesiveness among the group. Hate to said that but it is true.
Indeed, that's why I still insist to have the appreciation dinner as this may be the last chance to gather everyone together, to break the ice,to solve the conflict, to apologize, to forgive,to hug, to smile, to cry.. Nothing else, just to be TOGETHER.
Not to blame, I know I did a bad job. Being a leader , once need to be good in giving instruction and organising.. and the important one .. being the spiritual person in the organisation. I am not good at all. Perhaps, I don't own the charisma to be the leader.
Once heard that leader can be trained. In the other hand, I do believe some of the elements of a leader is so much connected with personality.
Nonetheless, throughout this.. I learn, I feel, I gain and I loss.. After all, I should just make a step forward with the experience I gain.
